Pregnancy no 2

After I had my daughter in 2017, I never thought I will walk in the path of planning for a second child. But as years passed by and COVID came and left many families displaced, an unknown fear crept inside of me. I started to think in this busy world of ours we hardly spend enough time within family members and if something were to happen to me, who would Diya have to lean on. Well in all probability they won't be best of friends but knowing you have someone you are biologically programmed to call family would definitely make it a little easy in this big unknown world. 

I started my planning for my 2nd child in 2022 and when Kuldeep was back from his solo trip to Jammu, Pangarchula we decided together that it might be a good decision. I got pregnant but I lost the pregnancy within 1 month. Post that I kept trying but Kuldeep moved to US in November of 2022 and then eventually me and Diya moved to US in Feb of 2023. We kept trying but I was not getting pregnant. Then after trying for almost 1 year, I set up a consultant with a reproductive endocrinologist at CCRM and in the 1 at consultantation she recommended IVF. I was ok but Kuldeep wasn't very keen on IVF and then Ishu my friend whose wife delivered through IVF recommended not to go ahead with IVF. I read a lot about it and figured out IVF kicks in auto immune disorders, ovarian cancer and many other complications. I dropped the idea since we already had Diya. It would be disastrous if Diya lost me in the process for a sibling. Then we sort of dropped the whole plan. In the summer of 2023 we planned a trip to India. I was missing India and the familiarity of being in ones own country.